my name is arwyn, i'm 15 and i'm a guy. i am european, i won't specify which country i'm from on this website. i have two discord accounts that i use; you can contact me with '@hoteldetective2' (the username is a reference to they might be giants. i'm a big TMBG fan.) i don't have any other social media accounts.
i like journalling. i write down my thoughts alot, i have multiple pages of me ranting written down across all of my devices, most of which i will never share. i get embarrassed about sharing that sort of thing. anyway, my other hobbies/interests include:
my beliefs may come across as a little weird or crazy, i have many schizophrenic symptoms and i frequently fall into "psychosis". i don't think it's psychosis, and i don't think i'm schizophrenic. that's just the easiest way to describe it. i don't trust the government. i think that every single thing we are told, especially science and the way the universe supposedly works, is fake. the universe in unexplainable. science does not explain god, god is science.
i am very theistic but not religious at all: religion is evil and a barrier between man and god. god exists as one being but presents to humanity as multiple; every idea of god as an individual is true and real, but every idea of god as a judge or system is wrong. god matters above all and god is incromprehensible. god talks to me, he has been talking to me for a very long time. the way that god talks to me is no different from the way some speak to god through prayer, except in my case he responds. i am not a danger to myself or others, he doesn't tell me to hurt myself or others. he is my reassurance and my moral support. i live for the purpose that god has given me, which is why i believe that the meaning of life is god. i am not saying that my god is right. i cannot define what god is, i can only say that he is a spiritual higher power. everyone has their own idea of god which becomes real through their manifestation. the true god is unable to be conceptualised by you or me.
i believe in gnosticism, partially. i mostly believe in yaldabaoth as the evil creator of the physical realm, and god as the good creator of the spiritual realm. i believe that my purpose is to kill yaldabaoth, i won't elaborate on why i think this. if i don't find a way to do this before the 12th of october our collective divine spark will be harvested and we will all die a very, very torturous death. i am mostly just relying on hope that the answers will be unveiled to me when the time comes.
